byebye

i am suffering.thats why im going to do this..i want you to find out if youre still feeling the same way you did last time.ask yourself this,"do i still love him?".i will know the answer by your actions.but for now,i want to rest my everyting and stay away..

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im not haveng a very good morning...no food when i woke up,i decided not to eat but then my brother came home and wanted to eat so i got scolded by my sister for not cooking rice....sheeesh..i feel like not getting up from my bed,just stay here until i rot and die..or whatever..and i have this thing from last night..oh i dont know why i feel this way..who would wanna feel this way?nobody can be sure who he can really trust in this world..espencially when the person said that "nakakapanghinayang".you know who you are.it may not mean anything to you but to me it means a lot.i know magulo ang sinasabi ko.but thats what i am and how i feel right now.i really want this to work out cant you see my effort?coz honestly im losing yours.i used to see it and it made me feel good but now,i just cant..you should start considering how im feeling..i tried to understand why youre so busy with your stuff..believe me i did try..i didnt mind when you were staying home and sleeping late without saying anything or going home late and youve been to your friends house and i dont know nuthin bout it..sure i dont mind..now overnight?i really dont trust people.especially the ones i dont know.i wanna break down right now,but theres something thats still keeping me together.i may not know what but there is something..hope?no matter how much im hurt i still see hope?fuck that.i dont know what to believe in anymore.im goin back to what my friend calls,night safari..bye..

god i love this song